Irony of life, when we think we've collected ourself pretty much in good shape, things goes in a different direction. Isn't it? I just don't know how can I be the most calm to most triggered person in just fraction of seconds with mere poking. Where was this fire even before and why I have a outburst like this in these not so welcoming situation. Suddenly this bluntness and unfiltered mouth is disrespectful. Oh, I so so regret it. Not because of the voice of opinion which could be right in the first place but because of the rudeness it must have projected, that is so not cool and not the right way. Personally, I won't take it from anyone and why would any? In these situation, things can take a ugly turn. Like, for me I've consumed with guilt and the receiver becomes the default victim of my behaviour. Even more critical when the victim takes the upperhand of this situation and take the power from you and declare being "RIGHT" in the whole discussion which is not true in the first place.
I was so angry on myself this morning and here I am laughing in my head, I'm the one who was preaching peace and calmness but I've failed my own lessons in my most vulnerable situation. Emotions can take over your intellect in the most ugly way that you've least expected. YOUR OUTBURSTS ARE PERSONAL and it's nothing to do with any one. That's it!!
See you next time ;)
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